A $1,000,000 QUESTiOon!!

tell me this...

how can a 15 second converstion (that i don't even remeber) between me and alex turn into confusion???

i mean man i dont get it!

it was not that freakin important to go back and report...

that makes me look at alex in a different light..... shes knows me and how i am...

to me she made it seem like i was talking about jalisa behind her back, which is not even the case!!

i axed her a question about a certain subject and she turned into a picasso; i dont even remeber what i said so i cant even say what i did say but i do know i wouldnt have said no effed stuff about jalisa....

** this is not to bash anybody but im so confused; if anybody understands this let me know because im lost on mars apparently!!**

i think i some ppl just need to stop trynna be a superhero and reporting everything, you dont work for wway tv3!!!

L8TLy iVE BEEN FEEliNq PURDy STRANqE :O

i mean sometimes confusion just rushes my cerebellum.
its crazy i know nothinqs wrong wif me or least i hope not... thinqs are sscattered all over the place at this time, im talking about my love life to be curt.
as of riqht now no boyfrann just talkinq to a dude that i went to middle school wif, im just trynna to qet a feel for him and his intentions... not sayinq were anythinq serious im just lettinq it be known
we text like everyday which i dont think is major, we never ever talk on the phone; i mean im not complaining though because i want that space..
sometimes i can be so moody! at some points i just plain out disrespect some ppl. im not down wif what most ppl stand for so im just trynna keep to myself and let my chaotic spell settle

i really dont know whats wrong wif me... i just need a lul help to make through this crap; but being i have no "friends" i have no one to talk to about things but myself.. no! im not a loner but i have really big trust issues, to me every one has a bit of treason in them i dont know why so dont ask... well maybe because its the way things have happened in the past; idkkkkk just bear wif me on this roller coaster ride and hope we dont puke
TTYlllll!

extra extra UPDATE. BABy!

soo today has been qood so far...

i qot a new hair cut last niqht that i really like! its not that much off but its cute enouqh for me,

ive been to myself alot more l8ly because ppl suck! i mean its always an effin problem. i can do bad all by myself so im ridin dolo for now on.no time for the petty ish...

been workinq extra hard these past two weeks, yep i qot a new job at TACO BELL its not the best in the world but i qet gr8 hours and my checks are qonna be pretty!!!

as far as the <3

as of yesterday i started bak talking to one of my middle school friends, hes a kay guy. dont think im trynna rush into thinqs wif him cause its not the case were cool.cool.chill.chill. and that how i want it to remain wif anyone i encounter

oh yea today me and ROGER qot into it! l o freakin l he can be so childish. enouqh of him thouqh since i have to be a blak bitch but hey! thats his opinion...

GOTTA GO NOW SINCE MY DUMB COMPUTER WANTS DIE :D

loNq TiME No Bloq

l8Tly iVE BEEN PRETTy SiCk So No TiME To REAlly Bloq...

iTS My FiRST DAy BAQ To Skool AND i MADE iT THRU FiRST PERioD! iTS qoNNA BE kiNDA HARD FoR ME NoT To FAll ASlEEP SDiNCE iM So USED To iT NoW BUT iMMA TRy To STAy UP... NoT FEEliN WEll RiqHT NoW BUT iM iN STUDy HAll So i CAN taKe a CAT NAP.

JUST qoT A MAjoR HEADACHE So i PoST SoMETHiNq NEW l8ER.

TTyl =(

REPoRT CARDS =( Ho. FREAKiN. HUM!

MAN THiS 9 WEEkS i REAlly BUMMED oUT!

HERE iS WHAT i DiD iN EACH CLASS:

lATiN: PASSED

MATH: HoPE i PASSED, SToPPED DOiNq HoMEWoRK FoR THE PAST WEEk THoUGH

SCiENCE: FAilED WiF FlyiNq ColoRS , SoO NoT Cool BTW

ENqliSH: i HAVE FAilED EVERy 9 WEEkS SiNCE FRESHMAN yEAR So No SURPRiSE

HiSToRy: FAilED AND i KNoW iT

** iM VERy SMART i JUST DoNT TRy HARD AT All, i ALSo PRoCRASTiNATE WHiCH iS A BiG NEqATiVE**

WHEN My MoM FiNDS oUT iM MiNCED MEAT BUT i CAN oNly BE MAD AT MySElF No oNE ElSE iS To BLAME FoR My ACTioNS... i FEEl HoRRiBlE BUT iTS Too lATE To TRy AND FiX THiNqS NoW

THE DAy So FAR;

ToDAy HAS BEEN qooD... BUT yET iT iS STill yoUNq.FiRST PERioD WAS So effin AMAZiNq! i HAVE oFFiCIAlly CoNSiDERED THE NAME [FABiAN].

iSNT iT CUTE?

WHEN i qoT oN THE BUS THiS MoRNiNq i HAD A MAJoR HEAD ACHE BUT THAT To ASHlEY R. i HAD AN EXCEDRiN To EASE THE PAiN...

CANT WiT FoT THiS WEEkEND; qoNNA HANq oUT WiF FRiEND DoWNTOWN, qo To kilWiNS, SHoP & qET My HAiR DoNE FoR EASTER, yEP iM qoiNq To CHURCH (FoR THE FiRST TiME iN FoREVER)

RiqHT NoW iM WoRkiNq oN My lATiN joURNAl ENTRy So i qUESS i BLOq A lUl L8ER

xoxo,

FABiAN CoRNEli

WE HAD A NiCE Tlk...!

i FiNAlly qoT A CHANCE To AX HiM WHAT i WANTED... iT WAS qooD =0.

HES MAD Cool AND NoT likE SoME PPl WiF oPPoSiNq oPiNioNS.

HE TolD ME SoME iNTERESTiNq THiNqs AND i HAVE To SAy i WAS QUiTE FlATTERED.

No iM NoT TlkiN ABT My BF & No THiS WAS A HARMlESS

CHiT-CHAT; MoRE likE A qET-To-kNoW-yoU

TyPE oF THiNq...

THE WHolE BloqqiNq oRDEAl ( :-D)

MAN THE PPl AT iSAAC BEAR ARE REAlly JUMPiNq oN THE BloqSPoT!
i FiND T REAlly kool BUT AS RiCH Boy, kERi HilSoN AND PoloW THE DoN SAiD
"qooD THiNGS DoNT lAST FoREVER, BABy!"
ANyWHERE PPl qRoUP ToGETHER THERE iS AlWAyS DRAMA...
ABT THE BlOqSPoT BUzz FoR ToDAY...
APPARENTly PPl ARE lASHiNG oUT AT D'JUAN BECAUSE HE TolD A CoUPlE oF PPl HoW HE FElT ABoUT THEM BEiNG FAkE . i DoNT REAlly UNDERSTAND THE WHolE iSSUE iT WAS JUST A Bloq DANG!!!
PPl CAN qET So EMoTioNAl oVER lUl STUFF BUT i WoUlDNT SWEAT iT. THERE Will BE THiNGS SAiD AND DoNE To yoU THAT yoU WoNT likE So DoNT MAkE A BiG FUSS!

EVEN THoUGH i FElT THAT WAS A SiTUATioN THAT CoUlD HAVE BEEN HANDlED FACE-To0-FACE BUT HEy To EACH iTS oWN DARE To BE DiFFERENT iF yoU wish

oH So TiRED oF BiSHoP'S MoNoToNE VoiCE!!

READy To Go RiGHT NoW!

i kNoW. i kNOW!

EVERyoNE WHo kNoWS ME, KNoWS THAT i CAN BE A HANDFUl AT TiMES! iM TiRED oF PPl CoMPlAiNiNq! JUST FACE THE FACTS THAT iM qoiNq To Do WHAT i WANNA Do REqARDlESS So i DoNT THiNK iT SHoUlD BE A PRoBlEM.

READER: DoNT THiNK iM TRyNNA BE FUNNy oR SAyiN THiS To ANyoNE iN PARTiCUlAR JUST lETTiN iT BE kNoW... iM ME!

iF yoU DoNT likE WHAT i HAVE To SAy BUilD yoUR oWN PERSoNAl BRooklyN BRiDGE AND GET THE eff oVER iT!!

i kNoW i HAVE A FEW PPl THAT <3>

ANoTHER PiECE oF ADViCE: DoNT WoRRy ABoUT THE NEXT PERSoN qET youR iSH iN oRDER

SK8-oR-STARVE SHiT!

MAN STUFF iS CRAzy oVER HERE! All THESE PPl CoMiN oN My, SPACE BEiNG CHilDiSH!!! likE i STATED PREVioUSly iM NoT oN THE BRiqHT SiDE OR THE DARk SiDE oF THiS EFFiN WAR. iM ME. tandrea mone'! ME BEiNG iN SK8-oR-STRAVE DoNT HAVE NoTHiNq To WiF NoBoDy BUT ME AND My FElloW MEMBERS.

oTHER THAN THAT iM qooD.